Beginikah Rupa Malaysia yang Kita Banggakan?

mereka kata nak buat demonstrasi secara aman. mereka kata ingin menegakkan kebenaran. tapi lain pula yang jadi. aku tidak menyokong mahupun membantah. semua orang mempunyai hak untuk bersuara. tapi berbaloikah lontaran suara itu kerana samada mereka sedar atau tidak, telah menyusahkan ramai pihak? jangan kata polis kejam kerana melanggar pengikut demonstrasi Bersih 3.0 dan jangan kata pengikut demonstrasi Bersih 3.0 bebal semata-mata kerana mengikuti demonstrasi ini. pasti kedua-dua pihak ada kisah dan sebab tersendiri. itu suatu yang pasti.

aku rasa sedih bila lihat rakyat dipergunakan. negara lain ketawa gembira melihat kebodohan masyarakat kita. antara sedar atau tidak, kita telah menjadikan diri kita sebagai satu bahan gurauan kepada mereka. mana Ambiga dan sekutunya di saat pengikut mereka cedera? hilang entah kemana. negara kita semakin binasa. nak tunggu peristiwa 13 Mei berulang semula? nak tunggu dijajah bangsa asing baru nak sedar di mana bumi dipijak, di situ langit dijunjung? mungkin semuanya sudah terlambat pada masa itu. dimanakah Malaysia yang suatu masa dahulu pernah aman dan bersatu rakyatnya yang berbilang bangsa...pilunya hati melihat negara tercinta jadi begini. siapakah yang perlu disalahkan? tepuk dada tanya selera. 

p/s : Ya Allah, lindungilah saudara-saudaraku daripada sebarang bencana dan kehinaan di dunia dan akhirat, amin.

Matang

matang. bagi aku, matang tu merupakan satu perkara yang subjektif. kenapa tak? walaupun usia berbeza, gaya pemikiran mungkin sama. dan walaupun usia sebaya, gaya pemikiran tak semestinya sama. sesetengah orang bangga mengatakan diri sendiri sudah matang, tapi perlakuan tidak menunjukkan diri sebegitu rupa. manakala sesetengah orang lebih selesa mengaku dirinya tidak matang, mungkin merasakan lebih banyak lagi yang harus dipelajari. dan aku? aku lebih senang untuk mengakui yang aku masih belum matang walaupun pada hakikatnya aku bakal menginjak ke umur 20 tahun. kenapa? entah, aku sendiri pun tak tahu untuk menafsirkan kematangan diri aku berada pada tahap mana. 

yang aku tahu, aku akan sentiasa merujuk kepada pendapat orang tuaku, mungkin juga teman rapat yang memahami diri ini, dalam melakukan keputusan. tetapi nasihat yang paling aku akan ambil kira sekali dari ayah. bukan tidak mampu membuat keputusan terbaik untuk diri sendiri, tapi aku selesa mengambil kira setiap bait nasihat mereka dalam melakukan sesuatu perkara. jadi, tidak matangkah aku kerana sentiasa bergantung harap kepada nasihat-nasihat tu semua? tidak. aku tak rasa pun camtu. seperti yang aku cakap, matang itu adalah perkara subjektif. memang kita tidak akan lari daripada masalah, ya masalah itu suatu yang pasti. pergilah kemanapun, masalah pasti akan ada, walaupun hanya satu. tetapi jika kita bijak, kita akan menghadapi masalah itu, bukan melarikan diri daripadanya.

bagi aku...orang yang matang itu bukan hanya matang dari segi pemikirannya, tetapi juga perlakuannya. matang bukan sekadar melihat kepada kehebatan seseorang itu dressing up mengikut trend semasa, bukan juga kerana kemewahan harta. bukan juga kerana kepandaiannya score marks dalam exams ataupun kerana dia bijak membaca pemikiran sesiapa. dan bagi aku, orang yang matang itu adalah orang yang mampu menahan diri daripada menyakiti hati sesiapa, mampu menahan kesakitan dari setiap masalah yang menimpa, masih mampu tersenyum walaupun banyak dugaan menimpa. dan yang paling penting tidak lupa diri dan sentiasa berusaha mencari keredhaan daripada-Nya. 

"you have a hard and long path of journey in this world. why should you only catter on the problems that came? take them as privileges and matured yourself through the experiences. don't regret anything in your life. you're not alone, because Allah is always with you. just trust Him, you'll never regret it"

Dean's Awards Ceremony

today's starting wasn't good. it was raining so heavily when i woke up. but i couldn't questioned too much about it. who am i to judge The Almighty's power. then, i managed to recall back a phrase that someone has told me, i don't remember who said it to me. that person said,

 "Hujan adalah rahmat dari Allah swt. so there shouldn't be appear any bad perception towards rain. we should cheerish the presence of the rain. Subhanallah...subhanallah..."

and i smiled again. then, i quickly went to the bathroom to take a bath before get ready for the day. today will be held a ceremony for celebrating those dean's lists students at Dewan Seri Negeri, Melaka for UiTM KBM. and i'm grateful to be one of them. but i wished that someday i can go to this precious day with the rest of the girls...ili, shikin, tom, qila, sarah and siti. perhaps, someday...i'll wait patiently for that moment.

luck was on my side today. eventhough it was reaning so heavily when i went out from the house, shamim (my classmates) was already there, waiting so patiently to pick me up in front of my apartment's main gate. my clothes  went wet a little bit because there was strong winds that kept blowing while i am on my way to her car but it's okay, i can still endure the coldness.

the classmates

there are so many people by the time we arrived there. but the ceremony hasn't started yet. so i can see many students were loafing around inside the hall, walking from table to table, taking some pictures with their friends, keeping the memories last forever. so, the rest of us ( my classmates and i ) have been told that we'll be receiving our certificates during the fourth division. it was the last one. it's okay, as long as i'll get my certificate, then waiting for the lists to be read wouldn't bother me at all. 

with Qiera, the inheritance of Pakistani-blood girl =)

by the time my name was announced, i felt so nervous. like it was the first time i'll be on stage. lolss! so whatever lah kan. sempat nak berdrama pulak. but i managed to control that feeling, and i walked honourably on the stage. it was a good experience. may Allah let me repeat the success of getting a good results for this semester too. and i hope He will let my friend to be there too to celebrate our success together, amin.....

in front of the main entrance of Dewan Seri Negeri, Melaka.

The Secret Life of Troopers

going drunk in late night parties!

being late to work and yet still didn't notice what he wears on that morning!

go to sleep with a teddy bear as a companion!

playing with his favourite teddy bear!

trying to relieve the tense from Darth Vader by  going to the funfair!

building up some muscles at the gym!

staring at the moonlight by midnight!

practicing car pooling to save the environment!

rapping all the way like Eminem and 50 cents!

reading the love-hate relationship novel...ehh? Darth Vader also doing it too? lolss!

playing tennis...erkhh???!

paying their last attribute towards Steven Jobs!

helping to clean up the lawn!

even going out for a date!

had a cat-dog fight to play games in iPhone!

playing scribbles!

cheerleading! pom pom yeah!

go to the music classes to master themselves playing the guitar!

somehow, i figure out these pictures are so cute and adorable! i just found it on a website which i don't exactly remember.....but i just wanna tell you about how cute these pictures are! so i decided to post several of them here. of course i made up the stories for each picture, just to make it more fun and interesting yeah! alas, this is what we called as art. so do enjoy browsing each one of them! teehee~