A letter for a friend who is too near front of the eyes but too far from the heart

What a week...it passed like nothing has ever happened to me. But the truth is, i'm totally in a deep pain. But i don't know where to go, i don't know with who should i share this pain. I feel so lonely, perhaps i should just get a pistol and killed myself. Everyone gonna be happy, and me too, ain't it right?

I have once got a friend, who i taught could be the wall to lean and support me from keep falling. I used to have that one friend where i used to share a lot of stories with her. I used to have that one friend who always stands by my side eventhough the whole world is laughing at my clumsiness and stupiditiness. I used to have that one friend  who always knew how to comfort me and make me feel worthy in this cruel life. 

But where did she go? That one friend has never give her advice to me with a high tone. But she just didi it on that one day. From that moment, everything has changes...i just knew that things are not gonna be like we used to have like before. I don't know her, she has changed, pretty lot of changes. Maybe she's just cannot stand with my clumsiness, silliness, unperfectness anymore. I guess she feels ashamed when she's being with me. Sorry FRIEND if i made you feel like that, i'm totally sorry.

How i wish you know that i missed those past days we spend together so badly...how i wish you will know i miss you, FRIEND...but i just knew, we'll never be like before. Cause i just can't let myself to forgive you that easily. The hatred of seeing you being happy by abandoning me is totally unforgiven, how could you be so mean? Don't you ever once think about my feeling, what it feels to be like at my place if God let us switch place? Yeaa, i know, you don't feel guilty at all cause if you feel it, you won't leave me just like that. You aren't the only  friend that i got in this world, surely i have plenty of them, but i feel sorry that our friendship turned out this way. Goodbye my FRIEND.....hope your life will be more cheerful without my presence ='(

Who is the hypocrite one right now?

Hye! It's been a while after the last time i wrote in my blog here. I missed blabbering at this place but what to do? I've been way too busy with tests plus in KBM, UiTM didn't provide us with a better line of wi-fi. So daripada membuang masa dan tenaga je tunggu every page that i wanna open to loading, i"ve decided not to go online at all. Tapi kalau kawan-kawan nampak saya online, so that's means i'm online in the library or it's either i borrowed my housemate's broadband, hehe. Tapi guna sekejap je pun, pakai broadband orang kan??? Mana boleh buat macam hak sendiri, ayoooo manyak kulang ajar woahhh kalau buat itu macamm. Tak baik okay? Tak baik!

Housemate saya tu bagi je saya pinjam broadband dia, saya pernah tanya dia lagi betul ke boleh guna ni, siap nak bayar balik tapi housemate saya cakap takpe, dia kata tak kisah pun, bukan selalu saya guna broadband dia. Tapi adelaaa seorang HAMBA ALLAH yang busybody ni memang tak puas hati dengan saya, siap cakap saya muka tak malu bila minta pinjam broadband housemate saya tu, okay fineeee. Kau la paling perfect, dari segala aspek, rupa harta pelajaran semua pun ada. Apa yang kau cakap ngan buat jelah betul, orang lain semua salah. Terima kasih "KAWAN".

Aku just nak cakap satu benda, semua yang kau ada sekarang ni Allah boleh tarik bila-bila masa je, kau mesti tau kan? So berhentilah menganiaya orang lain dengan mulut jahat kau tu, sebar cerita buruk pasal aku dekat orang lain macam kau tu suci sangat. Bila kau buat macam tu, kau sedar tak kau dah jatuhkan maruah aku? Kau tak rasa bersalah ke buka aib aku depan orang lain, masalahnya kalau kau cerita kat perempuan je aku takde la nak kisah sangat tapi kau bukak cerita aku dekat lelaki. Terima kasih, terima kasih sangat, aku sangat menghargai usaha murni tak berbayar kau tu! Sekarang kau puas hati dah dapat buat diorang pandang serong dekat aku dan sebelahkan kau sedangkan diorang tak tau pun cerita dari side aku. Takpe, aku confirm kau dah puas hati dapat buat macam tu.Aku rasa kau mesti pernah dengar orang cakap camni kan "tak guna ada rupa tapi hati busuk"...jangan sampai aku cop kau macam tu pulak. Sabar aku ada limit weh, aku ni manusia biasa je bukan manusia suci turun dari syurga macam kau. Kalau aku dah naik hantu nanti, jangan salahkan aku sebab aku pun ada perasaan, aku bukannya Barbie doll tu haaa, dia lain la, kau hentak tarik rambut dia sakit mana pun bukan dia reti nak menjerit, sakit pun dia tak rasa kalau kita cabut tangan dia.

Pernah kau rasa ikhlas nak kawan dengan aku macam ni? Aku pernah tapi lepas apa yang kau dah buat dekat aku,  benda ni  tak mungkin jadi lagi dah. And i regretted every single minute i think of good things about you 'cause if i'd knew things would be like this, i'll keep my bad thoughts about you left unchanged in my mind!

Okay aku dah lega dapat lepaskan geram dekat sini. Sekian terima kasih!

Eating ice cream = the best therapy

nyumnyumnyum!

When people are in tensed condition, they tend to do a lot of things to release that kind of bad moods from their souls as well as relieved out the stress. As for me, i have choosed eating ice-cream as my way to cool down at the time i am feeling very uneasy. Whenever i am feeling down, ice-cream popped out first on my mind! Eating it truly help me to calm down and forget the problems that i am facing by that time. How powerful is that huh? Yeahh, nevermind, you would not understand it unless you are an ice-cream lovers too, teehee. As if ice is not fun enough...there are lots of fun facts about ice-cream to explore! Lets read them!

1.          It takes about 50 licks to lick away one scoop of ice cream!
2.          Of all the days of the week, most ice cream is bought on Sunday!
3.          Kids aged 2-12 and adults over 45 eat the most ice cream!
4.          More men (13%) admit to licking their ice cream bowl clean than women (8%)!
5.          Vanilla, chocolate, butter pecan, strawberry, and mint chocolate chip are the most popular ice cream flavours!
6.          Chocolate syrup is the most popular ice cream topping!
7.          5% of ice cream eaters share their ice cream with their pet!
8.          Air is an important ingredient in ice cream - it keeps the ice cream from freezing solid!
9.          July is National Ice Cream Month!
10.          The 3rd Sunday in July is National Ice Cream Day!

my best therapy ever!

Learn to love others as much as we would like to be loved

A : Eh kau ni buat kerja lembab laaa. Mengalahkan OKU!

B : Mana ada aku buat kerja lembab. Kau tu yang buat kerja lembab cam OKU, bukan aku laaa. Hahaha!

Have you guys ever heard this kind of conversation? I bet you guys have even it is only once because I can surely said that you are lying if you said that you don't. In our daily life, those kind of conversations are oftenly heard among us and sometimes we are also do the same thing, whether we are conscious about it or not. Many people do not realize the pain behind embarassment that the disabled have to face when their disability has been turned into some silly jokes. That act is very rude but people still do it heartlessly.

I feel a little bit weird. When we imperfectly do something, why do we have to relate it with the disabled? Why should we have to invlove their names instead of comparing it with other things around us? Is there any wrong doings that these people had done to us? No! I do not think so. We should be thankful because we do not have to feel the hardship and bitterness that these people have to go through just to prove that they can also succeed like us, the normal people. It is hard to say but regretfully, many people still being judgemental to them.

Most of my friends know that my mom was a teacher, but they did not know that she is a teacher who teaches the blind. From my early childhood, i have been exposed to the disabled and encouraged by mom to be friends with them. Alhamdulillah, there are a lot of things that i have learned through these people and i am very grateful to God for allowing to be who i am today. 

Oh yeahh before i forgot! I have some picture left during my childhood that i would like to share with you guys. These pictures have been taken during my fourth birthday party while mom is still teaching at SK(I) Jalan Batu, Kuala Lumpur. She was so eager to do a birthday party for me and invites her students to celebrate it with us. Mom had dressed me so nicely on that day and guess what? Till today i still have that red dress inside my closet! =')

  

  

Anyway, this is an honest request from the bottom of my heart. I am asking to all of you people to not despised on the disabled but please respect and love them as you wish yourself to be loved by others. Please remember that they also have feelings just like us. May God bless these peole, amin.

p/s : Mom, i am so proud of you! Seriously i mean it! <3

It's a midsem break people! hoyeahh!

Tomorrow is the day. I seriously can't wait to go back to KL. Not forget to be mention, i will be going home with Amy and Siti. The best part is i don't have to go to Malacca Central and ride on a bus! Amy will be driving us home to KL Sentral. Ohmyyygod! Imma so excited since i've been stuck here in the middle of Malacca city for the last three weeks. Darnn! Thank you to a tonnes of assignments that always keep its jealousy to my freedom. Grrr!

Yeaaahh, i keep thinking. How am i gonna spend this midsem holiday without a single regret? Every second is counts so i have to make sure that i don't waste any day without do nothing memorable, right? For now, these are the stuffs that i had catched up on my list :

• spend rest of the week with my family and buddies.
• get myself something soothing and refreshing like frappucino at Starbucks.
• and i shall get myself a bucket of Baskin Robin ice-cream too!
• make a suprise birthday party for Ayah and Alang on 13th November.
• hang out with my BFF at her house, Fatin i missed you girl!

I think that's all I can listed out for now. Anyway, currents news will be updated soon. Please wait to catch up guys! Lotsa love, xoxo! <3<3<3

Jamuan Raya UiTM KBM 2011

Hye readers! Assalamualaikum wbt.

Akhirnya dapat jugak online kat dalam bilik! Excited terlebih pulak. Yelaaa, mana tak excited, orang lain try sekali da boleh connect, yang Ann jenuh tunggu sampai this week baru dapat connect dgn wifi ni. Cett, diskriminasi di situ ye.

Bagi yang tak tahu, Ann sekarang dah pun selamat bergelar student UiTM Kolej Bandaraya Melaka ataupun kat Melaka ni, lebih peymes dipanggil KBM, dah nak masuk sebulan gitu. Dah nama pun kolej bandaraya, so confirm2 la criminal rate kat sini lagi tinggi if nak bandingkan dengan kat UiTM Puncak Alam tu kan? 

Tapi harini Ann xnak bebel pasal hal tu semua, xbest! Ann nak cerita jamuan raya yang kolej anjurkan Jumaat lepas. Best gila, sumpah terbaik! Food dy semuanya superb! Dari nasi impit, kuah kacang, lontong, nasi dagang, cendol, laksa Penang, rojak mee, kuih-muih, desserts...pendek kata, macam-macam ada! Bayangkan laaa, that jamuan raya should be end by 7pm but the food is already finished by 4pm! Haaaa, sedap ke tak makanan-makanan tu? Kalau tak sedap eventhough bagi makan free mesti tak habis gak kan? Nasib baik Ann dengan housemates datang awal sikit, kalau tak mesti melepas! 

Kenangan yang paling kelakar masa jamuan tu, kitorang kena makan berdiri! Sebabnya takde tempat duduk disediakan selain untuk orang atasan UiTM cam rektor, timbalan dia and etc etc. Mula-mula tu segan la jugak, tapi dah semua orang pun bantai makan berdiri, kitorang pun join la, haha. *xsopan anak-anak dara ni, ceitt! Berbaloi kot kitorang tak makan satu hari semata-mata nak tunggu makan free kat jamuan raya tu, eh makan free siapa tolak kan? Jimat duit belanja tu, hehe =D

Okay, suka gambar ni sebab nampak tinggi, winkwink! =D

from left : Siti, Diba and me.
The only picture that we have took without food! yang ada makanan tu cek simpan sorang2 la, hehe =D

C'est la vie de ann, bonjour!

Nor Farhana binti Mohd Latiff

19 years old

Currently pursuing studies in Degree in International Business at UiTM Kampus Bandaraya Melaka 

Daydreamer, Not that talkative, Playful, Lazy 

I have been born on 17th October 1992 at Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur. I got 5 siblings with 3 little sisters, Syahirah, Syuhada and Suhailah and 1 little brother, Farhan who are sheepishly annoyed me yet make me happy day by day. Being the eldest one has taught me a lot of valuable lessons where most of my friends would not understand as they are mostly not the first child in their family. But there is no regrets in my life for being the eldest one in the family. My parents are my idols, where Ayah is like my Superman and Mak is like my Wonder Woman. I adored both of them and i wished to be a good child to them in this life and also thereafter. My BFF are also one of the source of my strength to face the challenges that have came in past and may come in the future. To Umi, Hajar, Fida, Saby, Fatin...i just wanna say thanks for every tears, laughters, smiles and fights that we have shared together through the past years till today. Thanks for being there when i need you guys the most, i prayed the best for you guys!